“I should have gotten out of the relationship 25 years ago.”

That same episode gave viewers a front-row seat to Meri’s reaction to the footage.

“And then he says, ‘No, I don’t consider myself married to Meri.’

Kody Brown poses with Robyn Brown, Meri Brown, Christine Brown Woolley and Janelle Brown

Like, he just made the decision.

I’ve never heard him say that to me,” she told host Sukanya Krishnan (viaToday).

Kody even tried to deny Meri a public breakup because he wasn’t interested in dealing with the fallout.

Meri Brown and Kody Brown sit together during a “Sister Wives” confessional

“And he said, ‘No I don’t want to address it.

I don’t want that to be out there publicly because I don’t want that judgment.'”

He went on to explain how his fourth marriage felt different than the others.

Kody Brown smiles with Janelle Brown, Meri Brown, and Christine Brown Woolley

“I fell in love with Robyn.

I never fell in love with anybody else.

I was just choosing to be in that covenant of love with them.”

Group photo of the Brown family taken December 25, 2018

“I feel like I was deceived into a relationship that was very different than what I expected.

“I didn’t know who I was marrying.

As things unfolded, I started to become troubled and bitter by the situation I was in.”

Caleb Brush and Madison Brown Brush pose with their three children Axel, Evangalynn, and Josephine

“Kody is alienated from 90 to 95 percent of his children,” Janelle said (viaE!

“He is not really wanted at events.

He is not coming regardless of who he brings or doesn’t bring with him.”

Meri Brown, Janelle Brown, Kody Brown, Christine Brown Woolley, and Robyn Brown sit on a panel for TLC

Now, they’ll let me in that club as long as I leave Robyn behind.

I can’t do that,” he continued, but Janelle insisted that’s not the case.

“And I thought, OK, that was what was really holding me here.”

“There’s a lot of nuances, and I can’t be in the middle.”

In fact,their daughter Madison Brown Brushappears to have cut ties with her father completely.

She’s pretty much written them both off."

“What did I do to deserve this?

What did I do wrong?”

“Civil war,” he continued, describing the state of his households.

“Total civil war.”

he exclaimed, although it was unclear to which of his former wives he was referencing perhaps all three.

“They have all betrayed me!”

But outspoken Janelle says playing the victim has been something her ex has done all along.