This article includes mentions of eating disorders and mental health issues.

Unfortunately for Stacy London, that is exactly what she has faced for most of her life.

I was diagnosed after I felt small bumps behind my ear that felt like chicken skin.

Stacy London smiling

It got severe around 11 years old.

I was covered in scales from the neck down."

As she explained toParade, “Everything is hard to move.

Stacy London in dark lipstick

My weight goes up and down and things like that.

If you need help with an eating disorder, or know someone who does, help is available.

However, time seems to have healed some of the rift between them.

Stacy London sitting on a couch

And it was hard to kind of reconcile that.”

Because we don’t really hate each other.

We love each other, as a matter of fact."

Stacy London posing with Clinton Kelly

And not just any surgery, very expensive spinal surgery.

London underwent the procedure in December of that year, which was supposed to resolve her chronic pain.

The unexpectedness of its onset was particularly troubling: “It’s scary.

Stacy London smiling

And no one really explained this to me.”

To make matters worse, her romantic relationship at the time fell apart, as did her finances.

In the end, however, London was able to begin the equally long process of rebuilding her life.

Herbert London on the beach

And hope is very sticky, indeed."

Not the act of dying but the moments after that.

… His eyes were wide open.

They were still alive to me."

I still feel that when I think about the void that he left."